Forgot to submit an assignment. Great.

So I forgot that my final copy of my essay was due yesterday. I was so busy cramming for business that I forgot. No excuse. So I'm going to get an F for it. I'm already at a 70%. I'm honestly wondering what the purpose is at completing this course. I wont get an A, or even a B with the amount of time left in the semester. I have a couple assignments I can do for 30 points, but 30 points is nothing compared to the possible 100 I just lost. I'm so mad and disappointed right now. I have been so good at getting assignments done and turned in. Then the one big one I have been working on for weeks comes due and I don't get it in! I could just scream right now! Ugh. I would drop the class if it didn't mean losing the money I paid for it. But getting a bad grade on my transcript might be even worse. I don't know what to do.

My Five Words

Got an assignment this week - come up with my five favorite words and what they mean to me. Never really thought of my favorite words, or even ones I use a lot. Now that I have to put them to paper they escape me. So lets see.

Seriously comes to mind.

Seriously as in "did you really just say/ do that? There are so many people out there that do things that make you wonder how they got so far in life without getting dead.

Bonk. That's a fun word. To me its official use is in the bicycling world when someone crashes or they run out of fuel and they just cant keep going. They "bonked" up that hill. Well, I like to play with it when I screw up or someone else does. Oops, looks like I bonked that one!

Dude! Who doesn't like to exclaim Dude! when you just heard or saw something really awesome or crazy and cant wait to share the glorious details. Its just makes the whole experience more real. This is also often used in conjunction with Seriously! - type moments.

OhMahGa! This one is fun. It is a creation. At my work I'm reasonably certain. It is a contraction of Oh, My God. Thing is, one of my co-workers says Oh, My God so fast it sounds like OhMahGa! Great for exclaiming surprise and general dumbfoundedness.

BOOM! This has great versatility. It can be used to describe and explosion, car wreck, things falling, or just for dramatic effect. Never gets old. Commonly used along with the other words in this list.

Sweet. OK, so I'm sure this word is way overdone and needs to be retired. But I have yet to find an alternative that is as versatile and able to bring together all your feelings on a topic / subject so concisely.

Looks like my words are pretty useful in the situations I normally find myself. Its cool how they can all be connected in a single sentence to exclaim a general circumstance or sprinkled throughout the description of the newest viral YouTube video!

What to Write?

I don't know what to write about tonight. Its getting like that much more often the longer this Blog goes. I just commented on some of my classmates' Blogs for the bonus points. Now I have to write my own. So lets see. I was commercial driver today. It helped it go much quicker than last night did. Being able to get out of the store is probably the best thing about where I work. I'm not stuck inside always. Tomorrow I got to work on my friends car. His rear brakes need done so Ill be doing that then doing homework. That will probably take 4 hours out of my day. I'm also needing to go pick up my mountain bike from the shop. One of the bearings went bad, or so we think so it was getting replaced. Hopefully its fixed and I can go ride this weekend. After I pick up my bike tomorrow Im probably going to meet some classmates from my Business class to finish up a piece of our project that didn't go so good. SO hopefully we can fix it because the revision is due Thursday. Then after that, Ill probably go home and watch TV until its time for bed. Oh, wait, I have to come write another one of these Blogs...

Tired

I'm tired. Worn Out. Capuut. Done. I didn't sleep good at all last night then had to get up early for work. It was truck day, so all the worst customers show up and want our undivided attention while we haven't o put up over a thousand new parts. It gets old. Then my knee started hurting half way through with made things worse. Then the people that try to steal things come in and do there thing, thinking were not looking. Then I had to come sit outside the library to write this. I'm like most people in class. I'm finally starting to loose the oomph to do this blog. Nightly is too much. They say online classes are to allow you to do the work in your own time. I don't know how that's the case when I am making time for assignments. The world revolves around it. I wont ever take another online class. Its exhausting. So I'm cutting it short tonight.

Editing My Essay

I started editing my essay today. My group had some good constructive criticism about it. I tried to implement it as best I could. I went through it and tried to cut the fat like I learned in out Writers Workshop. This allowed me to expound on the ideas my group came up with while staying under the 4 page barrier. I think I did OK. I'll try to get the writing center to look at it before its due. To those that are in my group:

Irene: I wanted to expand on the backgrounds of the men who helped me, but didn't want to say too much. They have the right to privacy just like everyone else, no matter what some people may think. I tried to give details on Bull and a few other that I was very close to. I hope it shows that people can overcome anything if they truly want to. I also tried to reword my first paragraph to make it BOOM more.

Destiny: Expanding on my family was also something I had to cut. Before I knew it I had over a page and a half of nothing but my family. I ended up cutting a lot of it before I submitted my rough draft. I tried to put in some details about my family, specifically my Grannie who thought me the most about the morals I now follow. I tried to reword the sentences you commented on, about learning things I shouldn't and how it made me believe certain things. That was a sloppy paragraph and I think most of it needed deleted. I also tried to clear up and edit my first paragraph and make my thesis clearer.

Christina: I reworded my first sentence, hopefully making it a stronger, clearer thesis. I also found the misspellings and grammar errors and tried to correct any others that I saw.

Thank you all for your words of encouragement and help with this Essay. Hopefully it meets your standards. I'm going to re-post it and let you guys read it and re-comment on it if you like. I'll also email you this so you're sure to see it. :-)

What to do with free time?

You ever have that feeling when you are free to do what you want you just cant decide what to do? I HATE that feeling. It makes my skin crawl. I ache all over when I cant decide what to do. Its almost like a mini panic attack,... I guess? I don't know what else to call it but its real. With my ADHD and OCD I usually have to plan out my days to some extent. When plans go awry and I don't have a back up, or if I just have a lot of free time with nothing to do, I freeze. Ill get all mad or mopey, or something until I figure out what to do. Sometimes it reaches the point that nothing sounds like its worth doing, sounds fun. I usually work through it. The meds help. So does Tiffany, so I get through it. Not as bad as it used to be. This weekend I have the place to myself and I'm going to try and use it productively before I have to do more homework. I'm going to draw (something I have not done in a LONG time), I'm going to clean and arrange the guest bedroom, and maybe, just maybe, Ill try working on the Honda tomorrow and get that damn door open! Wish me luck!

What do Tests Prove?

I just took my third business test. This is the first one I didn't get an A on - I got a B. The test was over 3 chapters. management and Leadership, Structuring Organizations for Today's Challenges, and Production and operations Management. My Business book came with an online version that is to pace you and make sure you read whats important. You also answer questions relating to the chapters and it molds the learning to your needed areas. On the two previous tests, I had no problem. I read the chapters, did the review, and did it all over again. It seemed to be working. Well, not on this test! I could not for the life of me keep everything straight. Who knew there were 5 different production plans, or that under each one is a set of specific rules to follow! I have been reading these chapters for over a week and a half now. I still am getting answers wrong. So I figured I'd read some more and redo the review. Still did not help that much! So this leads me to my question; what is the point of testing? What does this test prove? That I am not management material? That I'm destined to be a lowly staffer all my life? Does it really prove anything other than I cant memorize all of what someone things I should know before a deadline? I mean, I understand this stuff is important, but would it not be more important if I could put it to practice and see how it effects my understanding of these terms? This is like Isaac Asimov's personal narrative "What is Intelligence, Anyway?" and Russell Baker's personal narrative on "School vs. Education." Its all just stuff that people who are deemed smart in the area of Business management put into a book and say "you need to know this to be like us." No, I don't need to know all this "stuff." Yes, it will help, but until l can put these words to action, then they aren't worth much more than the paper they are written on. According to OTC, that paper is worth a few thousand dollars... Guess I better memorize ever cents' worth...