My Jung Typology is ENFJ. That in
itself sounds complicated. Looking at my results to me it says I'm a
muddled mess. But that's a good thing, right!?
The first E says I'm moderately
extroverted (56%) over introverted. This is surprising to me in some
ways. I always saw myself as the the go getter. I would usually end
up taking control of group assignments and carrying the load. This
was not always by choice, and I think that's where the introversion
comes in. I don't like to always be in control. It makes me nervous
at times to think that everything rests on my shoulders. I believe
this is part of the reason I have trouble starting papers or other
big assignments. I'll pace and pace, going over idea after idea until
deciding on one. But once I get going watch out! I do agree that I am
very charismatic. In fact my ability to be liked by others has helped
me in the work place. It helped me get a job after not having a job
for quite a long time, and has kept me valuable in the work place. I
am cluttered at times, and not just at home. My brain is constantly
turning, sucking in new information like a black hole, but there in
lies the issue. My mind races so much that I have trouble completing
things and following directions at times, often starting something
many things and failing to complete them. I self-sacrifice to a point
that is unhealthy, helping everyone before myself. This has lead to
trouble in the past and I'm currently on medication, which I think is
helping but only times will tell.
The N stands for using Intuition over
Sensing (25%). I like to learn how to do things but then don't like
to learn how to do it another way. This is common with the way I work
on cars, draw, work, etc. When I must learn how to do something it
can take quite awhile to get it right if I have done it a different
way before. But my intuition has helped me more than hindered me.
This is also where Feeling over
Thinking (38%) come in. I also believe this is tied to my intuition.
I believe It has kept me out of trouble, helped me think rationally
when emotions are running high. People often turn to me in crisis and
I can usually help. But when its something close to me I wind up
panicking and frozen, not know what to do.
I am also Judgmental (11%) over
Perception. I approach life in a very structured way. I want to have
every plan laid out and struggle with change. I am usually able to
get still get things done but it will sour me for the rest of the
day. If plans I have been waiting for get canceled I find it
devastating. I find myself very judgmental of others. I expect a very
high standard and wind up disappointed over trivial things. To the
point of hurting people, sometimes intentionally with what I say. I
lack a filter between brain and mouth and I have no poker face. I am
primarily Irish and my emotions run very high. So combined with
Feeling I can be impossible to deal with and be around.
I am learning from this test that as a
writer and student, I need structure but I don't need the rigidity of
a concrete box. Not everything has to fit in place. This severe
rigidity has rendered me frozen at times. I need to learn to flow. A
current has structure – its headed in a certain direction, but when
something blocks its path it doesn't just freeze, it finds a way
around and continues on its course.
But from my experiences and the and the
fact that I like being in different situations stands in stark
contrast to structure. I enjoy being in the moment, feeling, seeing,
smelling – using all my senses to enjoy life. It also helps my
writing because once the flow starts it keeps going – perfect for
free writing!
Although this test contrasted some
things more than I thought they would be, I learned that the majority
of what I thought is correct. This helped shed light on some problem
areas that need more attention. I did have fun with this assignment.
Its like a miner chipping away, trying to find the gold beneath.
Every answer sheds a little more light on myself.
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